Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Sitting Alone in my office department on my seat, I am feeling soooo scared deep down inside. Not Scared of any ghost or Lizard (My phobia), but I am scared of the loneliness. As nobody has arrived yet, I am alone in the department, doing my work. But negative thoughts are constantly clouding my mind, all the insecurities shrinking my heart and making me feel so helpless. To avoid that negative thing, I tried to distract my thoughts to something else, read some blogs, wrote some content, did some usual reporting stuff but all in vain. That feeling of loneliness is there. And one thing I must admit I am Scared of it.

Though I am a reserved person, become choosy while making friends but I need people around me to feel alive. Otherwise, I feel so scared and low. I avoid such kinda situation in which I may be left alone, but if I am alone all these negative thoughts keep coming to my mind. Thank God, one of the colleagues has arrived... Feels like life has come back. And yeah thanks to Blogging that I can take it out by writing. See ya Guys.

18 comments :

Angie, The Rehab Reject said...

Hey don't think so much! I know how loneliness kills... By the way this is a song you might like in reference to your situation http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pFIyGq3JAqE It's "Loneliness Knows Me By Name" by Westlife. Hey! I'll publish the next part now so you can chill ;)

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Girl Next Door said...

@ Angie, The Rehab Reject: Hey Thank You Angie.. ..You are such a Sweetheart :)

Hopeless Romantic said...

cheer up, things wld b fine....go out a bit ! Smile now :)

Take care!
amit

i want to be... said...

try to fill loneliness before it fills u...tc!!

n hey i'll be glad if u'll take out time n visit my blog..thanks!!

A. K. said...

I can understand girl...Loneliness sure does kill. I guess its time for you to find someone to hold on, talk and share your feelings.
You know what am trying to say here. A boy friend..
I doubt that you were even scared of ghost this morning. LOL

Girl Next Door said...

@ Hopeless Romantic

Thanks Amit :)

Girl Next Door said...

@ A. K.

Thanks A.K. for understanding. Yeah even I feel sometimes, that I must have that someone Special .. But don't fall into a relationship just for the sake of it. As it's better to be alone than in an abusive relationship.. Let's hope for the best ..

CutePriya said...

Oh Sweety! I can completely understand what you must bee feeling. But chill, if reading is not working you can try listening to peppy numbers. Go out at some crowded place or you can even talk to a friend... Don't worry darling.. things never remain the same... As I always say... you'll get what you DESERVE!

Smile. Hee... He...Hee...

Love,
Priya :)

Girl Next Door said...

@ CutePriya

Thanks Priya !! So Sweet of you :)

M Riyadh Sharif said...

I understand your feelings. This happens to me sometimes. Interestingly my last post was about my loneliness! But I guess we all find a way out of this at last... So don't a scared of it!

Dr. Chandana Shekar said...

loneliness is a very bad thing ya. even i too get depressed coz of it many a times. but yet, i wud tell u to relax. just laugh at it and it wud run away from u :) when ur lonely, think of the happy times u've spent with ur loved ones. dream about ur future. get a smile on ur face with spark in ur eyes. and then, u wont even know wat loneliness means. time will pass away without ur knowledge.
chillax..
cheers :)

Girl Next Door said...

@ M Riyadh Sharif: Thanks Buddy !

@ Dr. Chandana Shekar: Thanks Buddy for your suggestions. Will try it next time :)

~*~ Jal Pari ~*~ said...

Loneliness kills me as well sometimes but its better to be miserable and single than be a good person who's stuck in a bad relationship (so a boyfriend is not a solution since this is an inner conflict you have with yourself).. Go for a walk, put on some music, read a book.. and hopefully it will go away for the time being..:)

p.s. nice blog..

Amrita~Ams said...

ooo...same here...loneliness kills :(.
btw dont worry..read by post :D...and cm ol..we willl chat..tym pass hoga :D

Suyog said...

as a friend i would like to tell you that its not like always there will be someone who can make u alive with his/her lively behavior....u should have it in yourself dear.......

anyways keep smiling and rocking darr ko bhagaao !!!

The Aspirant said...

yes loneliness is alwaz a killing thing......
it kills u widout even ne weapon....
dats y one alwaz need sum1 wid him/her to b alive.....

well drop at ur blog first tym nd itr really interesting....

cheers

ijswamy said...

Single and enjoying. Loneliness kills you .Iam ot able to comprehend