Monday, June 22, 2009

It may seem a very depressing post to you all. But, As it's the place where I want to be what I am. So, I am writing whatever I am feeling right now.

Feeling very low. nothing seems to be positive. I am still not clear what I want out of myself. Though I know the value of my Job, I know how hard I fought to get this job, this position. Still not contented with whatever I am doing.

I know, I don't love my ex anymore, still whenever he calls me up. His conversations leave me depressed and I wander why I pick up his calls. Can't I tell him, just get lost. Not I think I can never do that.

I know, I am about to get married may be in a year or 6 months. But still not excited.

Though many people tell me, you look good, still I get jealous looking at other beautiful ladies sometimes.

I don't know where I am going. I really don't know what I want??? One of my friend was telling me that We "Leos" have very frequent mood swings. May be it's one of those bad days.

Thanks for bearing the depressing post.

Yeah one more update: May we need to work for one more hour from this week. It's really tough to be a "Corporate Bitch"


A. K. said...

Its tough to be a corporate slut. About your ex, just tell him to leave you alone and move on. If he still call you, tell him that you are going to make an FIR against him for harassing. Girls do get jealous when they see someone beautiful or better than them.. Its a natural thing. Its in you (female) blood to be jealous. But just remeber one thing, physical beauty is just skin deep, it fades with time. What really last is your heart. Instead of comparing your physical body with someone, compared whether you are a better person that she..

Dr. Chandana Shekar said...

hey mood swings ya.. deal with it. get some close friends to talk about it. and then maybe it'll be fine. i also am in such a situation rite now. just tryin to get out of it. take care

Suyog said...

this swinging of mood is a typical trait of girls....waise now a days the weather is not really so don't blame yourself for that. i have a better suggestion that u read ur favourite book Five Point Someone once more and read more about ur hero "RYAN" ;) and if possible go for a holiday with friends....everything will be alryt :)

Shanu said...

I know how you feel.

I put in 12 hr days for nearly a yr just so that i cld get this promotion..and now that I have got doesnt seem worth it anymore.
I have compromised my personal life for my work and today I regret doing it.

My mom dad are looking out for a guy but i just cannot connect with ne1!

I have no clue how i reached here..but deftly this wasnt the place i wanted to be in :(

Sorry for the rant..but ur post touched a cord somewhere.

sreehari said...

wud like to know ur opinions.. i m commenting only gals bcos if i get a gal to comment u indirectly hit d guys hehehe so plz co-operate ;) atleast consider d time i spent on it :D

The Aspirant said...

well blogging is nt only abt sharing ur xciting moments wid us, its a gateway of sharing ur evry feeling wid u shud nt think dat it depressed ur readers.....

nd u really hv to take sum really big decisions of ur lyf, jst think of dem nd dunt let things gof r tomorrow nd say d wrds u want to say ur bf......

dunt wrry night alwaz signifies dat day is nt far away.....